Futility

Futility -
fu·til·i·ty [fyoo tíllətee]
(plural fu·til·i·ties)
n
1. pointlessness: lack of usefulness or effectiveness
2. pointless action: an action that has no use, purpose, or effect

In one of my earlier post, I wrote that I felt like I needed to write again. Since that time, I have spent many hours trying express in writing the things I feel I need to say. At first it was all well and good, but as time went by, I found that I was having a hard time forming the words to express what I needed to say. I have written and rewritten over and over again, at yet at this time, I am still quite a ways from being done.

I really do not mind spending most of my time on this; however, I have recently began to ask, “what’s the point?” My experience ( not to mention the scripture itself) tells me that no matter what I say or how I say it, I will not be heard.

When I say, “I will not be heard,” I don’t mean that people will not read what I write. While it’s true that most will not, there always remains a few who will. However, even though some will read what I write, they will not hear. No matter how plain my words are, they will not be able to perceive what is really being said.

Being reminded of this, I almost lost all heart and desire to write; however, today my desire to write is once again renewed.

It was renewed last night as I read a letter from my brother Jude (the letter that is in scripture). In his letter to me, he encouraged me to contend for the faith. He encouraged me to do this because he saw the truth of God that he loved being over shadowed by a lie. Seeing this, Jude wrote to encourage me (as well as the rest of the family) to stand up and make sure that the truth is heard. And I have no intention of letting Jude down. I plan to give all the strength and resources I can afford to give to make sure that this truth is proclaimed. While I don’t expect anyone to believe it. I am still going to declare it.

Will all my effort be futile? If converting people to truth was my goal, then one could safely predict that: Yes. My work will most likely be futile. However, converting people to truth is not my goal (all though I would greatly rejoice in such results). My only goal is making sure that the truth I know and love is proclaimed. And since that alone is my goal, the only way my effort could be futile would be to make no effort at all. And for now, that is not an option.