Throwing in the Towel? - Not yet!

Last night I was very discouraged. I was once again overwhelmed with a sense of futility regarding all my effort. I just finished writing something that I had been working on for a while and was initially excited about sharing it. But at some point between completing it and sharing it, I began to feel very doubtful that anyone would actually take the time to read it. Despite the fact that the things I write are very wonderful and exciting to me, I also realize that to many, they are nothing but more dull opinion on spiritual matters. Last night, this realization almost overwhelmed me to the point of just calling it quits.

However, in the midst of this, my wife in her wisdom told me that maybe I was just tired. She suggested I go to bed and get a good night sleep. Realizing that she might be right, I went to bed. As I was trying to go to sleep, my wife began to read from 1st Corinthians to me. For the most part, I was completely out-of-it during her reading. I'm not really sure whether I was drifting in and out of sleep or whether I was just day dreaming. All I know for sure is that I heard basically nothing until she read that last verse of chapter 15 which says: Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

While I can't say that this was a specific message from God to motivate me to keep going (for I can't even promise you that it is God who is motivating me to do this in the first place), I can say that I was encouraged to do just that. I was suddenly renewed with a new desire and commitment to keep pressing forward. And so, once again, that is what I am doing. While a day may come in which I throw in the towel, it is at least not today.

And with that said, I can now say that today was a pretty good day. I posted my most recent writing on a couple of "Christian" forums and I received a few very encouraging responses. They were encouraging because they seemed to indicate that the reader really comprehended what I was saying. And trust me; that is a very rare thing. While it remains to be seen what comes of the people who sent me the responses, it was at least a very timely boost that I was glad to receive.